A Daze in Days

Getting better.

thekab:

I don’t do certain things because of you. Or not because of you, but for you. I only better myself so that I can feel like I deserve to be loved by someone like you. They say that you accept the love you think you deserve, and I couldn’t agree more. I stopped letting myself push you away so often because I’m trying, for you, to become someone who deserves what you give me.

I don’t say I hate myself anymore or critique myself too much or worry about who’s gonna think what of me, because I want your love, your trust, and how could I have any of that if I don’t love nor trust myself? This is me doing myself a favor for once, because I don’t cherish or want anything more than our relationship.

It’s a challenge. Sometimes I bug the shit out of myself, but I only have to think that you, of all people, love me always - through my attitude, my mistakes, my anxiety, my sensitivity, even when I feel like I look completely ugly on the inside and out.. Maybe you’re the best person I’ve ever met to love me through all my flaws and faults I see in myself, and maybe I’m foolish because I can’t see in me what you do, but I know that your love gives me the strength I need to be okay with who I am each passing day; I need you. I am becoming someone I want to be because of you, for us.

I just need you to know that I appreciate you, and if that doesn’t show now, it will. I love you.

The cutest thing I’ve read in a while. You two make a good couple!

Ah, thank you. That really made my night. <3

31 May

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This text was reblogged from lame-y and originally by thekab.

Getting better.

I don’t do certain things because of you. Or not because of you, but for you. I only better myself so that I can feel like I deserve to be loved by someone like you. They say that you accept the love you think you deserve, and I couldn’t agree more. I stopped letting myself push you away so often because I’m trying, for you, to become someone who deserves what you give me.

I don’t say I hate myself anymore or critique myself too much or worry about who’s gonna think what of me, because I want your love, your trust, and how could I have any of that if I don’t love nor trust myself? This is me doing myself a favor for once, because I don’t cherish or want anything more than our relationship.

It’s a challenge. Sometimes I bug the shit out of myself, but I only have to think that you, of all people, love me always - through my attitude, my mistakes, my anxiety, my sensitivity, even when I feel like I look completely ugly on the inside and out.. Maybe you’re the best person I’ve ever met to love me through all my flaws and faults I see in myself, and maybe I’m foolish because I can’t see in me what you do, but I know that your love gives me the strength I need to be okay with who I am each passing day; I need you. I am becoming someone I want to be because of you, for us.

I just need you to know that I appreciate you, and if that doesn’t show now, it will. I love you.

21 May

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Miss you beautiful. <3

kristianaa

I miss you so much more. I really can’t wait to see you. :) My grades are shit right now, though, so my mom isn’t letting me go anywhere until they’re back up, but once they are I wanna please hangout!

17 April

Ask / tell me anything.

Follow me on Instagram?

@thekab :)

12 April

Hii, haha. I just wanna say you're so pretty :) and I'm so jelly. merrp. :'( haaha

ohimclaire

Omgosh, thank you so much. You’re way prettier, though, don’t be jealous. <3

11 April

Ask / tell me anything.

Realization

When I’m with you, I don’t itch with insecurities any longer. I instead become calmed with acceptance of myself because I believe that you truly love all of me, every bit of me, and that’s all I’ve ever needed to realize how good enough I really am for a boy, for a friend, for life, really. I’ve spent so long feeling like I didn’t belong and I had nowhere to feel safe, but I know now that if you want to belong, simply belong. There is no fitting in. If you give people a chance, they’ll give you one as well. And if they don’t, you must accept it and move on because everyone has their reasons for being the way they are. I, of all people, now realize this. How can I be upset at those who push me away when I once was that person, never letting anyone new get even a glimpse of the person I am, in fear of not being good enough? Everyone is good enough for someone, for multiple people really, but if you keep a barrier between yourself and those around you, you can’t be surprised when they back away. I know I’m only saying this right now when for so long I’ve been saying the complete opposite, and who knows? Maybe tomorrow I’ll be struck by that terrible bolt of negative energy again, but knowing that I’ve made it this far to realize all of what I’ve just written, well, that’s enough for me. I am enough for myself, and I accept who I am. They say that’s the first step, right? Acceptance? Then I’d like to say I’m gettin’ there, and damn, does it feel good.